darkness
silence
fear and confusion
alone and cold
toes on the precipice
of today
and tomorrow

the year behind
far and away
alone and lonely
warm and tired
frustrated and successful

getting here
the sum of the past
with my own Avogadro’s number
to just make the equations balance
becomes today
become me
if one had been different
where would I be
who would I be

from here
where
stepping off
into the unknown
the fear
that makes me want to vomit
sit down
where I am
curl into a ball
and cry

you are strong
you are my hero
you are… whatever you are…
all I want to be able to be
is enough

Author: April Wells
Updated December 28, 2015