Fraud

I am a fraud
a sham
fake
a liar
the shadow of
what someone wanted to be
I make excuses
cave
suck it up and
do the needful
the necessary
that which is expected
keep on keeping on
to do
to listen
when I’m told
i do
I pretend
it doesn’t hurt
and I turn around
and tell you
to live
chase your dream
let your heart
take wings and fly
while silently
I
sit and wish
and hurt
and inside die